I’m not good at normal things like money either, I suck with that stuff and that’s my biggest problem constantly. But I still refuse to give in to society’s bullshit standards on the way we’re supposed to make money. I’m not up for working for some fast food restaurant or another awful mall job. So I’m using my skills and my passions and my interests to make money, which is what we’re supposed to be doing anyways isn’t it? I don’t know what the main issue is for you, but there are ways to make life be the way you want it to be. Whatever the problem is, you can fix it. Be slow with your decisions and find your way back to your soul. I wish I could tell you how to get back to that but I’m not totally sure. I don’t remember how I did it. I think I just decided what my big goal was and then I started to break down the process with how to get there. I started making smaller decisions, I started doing things about it, and I started to make changes in my life. You don’t have to know what you want to do with your life. There aren’t as many rules as we’re taught. Fuck the white picket fence. Fuck the 9-5 office job, the two children, the nice car, the college degree, the money, the unhealthy tv dinners. Fuck all of that if it doesn’t feel right for you. You know what the rules are? Do what makes you happy. Support yourself. Be kind to others. Change the world in a positive way, no matter how small. LOVE. Those are the rules. Remember that. So if you want to leave and travel and meet new people, do it. But do it because you think these are the places you want to go to and not that this is the place you want to run from. You can live however you want to live. You are in control. And I know it’s not easy to make decisions and to figure out what you want and to go after it and to actually make it happen. I know that. But that doesn’t mean its not worth it. If you want something bad enough, you can get it. So be patient with yourself and test out what makes you feel more in touch with yourself. I suggest writing, but maybe I’m just biased. When you get to the point where you feel what is right for you and all is aligned, don’t hold back. Go get it. You won’t feel lost forever. I promise.